Is Being Content – A Compromise?

There is this day – most of us like to enjoy it, big celebrations are thrown on this particular day for everyone. It’s responsible for you-your transitions from one stage of life to the next.

The date is also important as that digit sticks to you for the rest of the life – school, national identity, almost everywhere, important as like your name.

By now, you must have guessed that this particular day is none other than our birthday.

I too used to enjoy this day very much. In-fact start of the year, whenever new year calendar used to be bought, I used to check, which day its falling, is there any holiday to plan it better.

As that month, date approaches, I used to get excited…but no more.

Now I don’t feel like it. As that day, month approaches, I literally hate myself.

It’s not because I am getting older, it’s a fact and no one can avoid it, but each passing year asks me that what I have achieved in my life?

When we look around, so many people with some or other achievements, stalwarts in their respective fields.

There are many who defied the worst circumstances like poverty, lack of opportunities, no god-father, disability and came out with shining colors in the life.

Whereas I found myself comparatively better on everything mentioned above, living a life of ordinary.

They say, you should have an objective in life, you should decide what to achieve and put all your efforts in that line.

Almost crossed 40’s but still not even know what is my objective. Too many things in mind, want This and That too.

Not able to zero-in on anything and just wandering in the jungle of life, doing the basics, which even an amoeba also does – surviving.

I am not jealous of others’ achievements, not at all. I know, they deserve it. It’s me, who hasn’t made any mark in the life.

There are few people, I see around, who are almost like me, sailing in the same boat, but I see them as happy.

They are happy with whatever they have achieved so far. They aren’t even thinking about the objectives, achievements in life.

Happy with what they have and content in their life.

I don’t understand, whether I should forget all above and be a part of the group who are happy with whatever they have.

Should we look back and be happy on how far we came or look ahead to check how much we are lagging behind.

Or just accept and give-in saying what you achieve is destined and nobody on earth can change that.

Then won’t it be a compromise we are making with self, is it not lying to your own self and TRY to show what you are not.

Don’t understand, but this cycle of thoughts is always there in mind and taking me nowhere.

This is really irritating. But me, standing here, again to accept the wishes of my another birthday, as always.