I am Happy…But

I’ve all the amenities that any common guy needs to be seen as a respected person in the society, but still seems something lagging…

Loving wife, healthy parents, obeying kid all yes!!!, but still…

Age is moving faster, with every coming and going year, this unstable situation is increasing only.

Am I missing something to do and do I really know what to do?

Is this pain about not knowing what to do or its more because despite I knew I am not onto it.

I think the latter must be the case. If so, what’s stopping me to go for it.

Is it the comfort of the present, the risk I need to take if I go for it, or the failure which will stick to me if I went ahead.

That way I am not afraid of failures and risks…in such cases, I think of extreme and plunge in, then why this blurry situation now…

Or maybe this can be because of the responsibilities — family, bills, distance traversed so far — will it worth to risk it now.

When discussed with closed ones, they said, I am unnecessarily creating issues, everything going great by God’s grace and I shouldn’t rock the boat.

But this again makes me feel complacent.

Few said, one should be content with whatever they have – But this makes me think I am compromising.

Too many things in mind, it became an intricate jungle of thoughts, difficult to get through.

Everyday this happens, these chain of thoughts come every day and stay with me for every hour and second of the day, while working, playing, laughing or talking.

Like an involuntary thing in the backend.

No solution seems so far… or I am intentionally not trying for it

God knows…but I am happy, but I don’t feel it!