That Fight with the World…literally with Everyone

Sometimes something happens and you get so agitated that you start fighting with everyone.

Almost everyone like your colleague, your wife, kids, parents, your bosses too, not even thinking how and what way it will backfire.

You are least bothered about the repercussions of that and at that particular point you decide to go to any length to break it.

In no mood to listen to anyone.

Your wife, kid, parents understand the situation and let you the way you want, that cold response from them adds fuel to the existing situation, they keep quiet thinking it will unnecessarily cause more issues but it works totally opposite way for you.

You want someone to provoke you again to make it worse, you almost decide that, yes it’s the end of the world, devil may care situation.

But everyone is not like the family members who understand you and try making situation calm.

Your such behaviour with outsiders, when met someone with similar mood then take it to the next worst level.

World don’t give a damn in what way you are behaving, they have nothing to do with your mood swings.

They will be brutal and act in tit-for-tat way.

Sometime later, when the anger subsides and the so called left brain-right brain (God knows what it is) make you think over it.

By that time most of the damage already happened.

You keep thinking over it, making your situation more stressful, what you did in the whole day.

You ponder over the whole day, was it worth the way you behaved, hurting the closed ones and burning the bridges with others, with whom you have to work or see faces every day.

You take a walk or sit silently, you go back to similar situations in the past, how you behaved in same manner, how it did no good to you and mainly how trivial that thing was.

You unnecessarily made a hill out of a mole.

Today’s situation is also same, just a bit here and there.

But then what is it that make us to behave so differently. Is it the unhappiness with the self, not able to achieve what we want, not able to work in the way we want or others not valuing our feelings…

Then we also know that such behaviour is not at all going to help us but still make us behave in that way.

World is brutal, it won’t accept and won’t let us behave as per our whims and hit back in similar way.

When we sit and think, what hurts more is that the way you behaved with your own people than how the world acted with you in such situation.

And that’s the worst feeling one can have. Then we go the our people, we beg sorry, they too understand and everything gets well. But the scars of words we used, the way we behaved will always remain there.

Need to work on self a lot…really a lot.