Navigating Unusual Emotions: A Personal Experience

There are some days when you have a strange feeling. Since you wake up in the morning and sometimes from the time you go to sleep last night, you keep feeling that something is amiss.

You try to keep it with you only. Perhaps you can occasionally share it with your close family by incorporating it into your daily routine. Like you kiss many times to your spouse or kids when leaving home.

You see everything at home with a different sight. You don’t know what is happening, a strange feeling altogether. You keep on going.

For me, I suddenly think of that one God whom I pray to a lot. I feel I should plan a visit to that place along with my family.

Family might think that somehow I was behaving a bit differently, but they don’t think it’s too weird. And we feel that it is okay that they are not aware of what we are thinking.

This feeling makes us feel that anything we are looking at or interacting with is one last time. We are not sure because “we never know”.

While driving to the workplace, a different thought keeps going through the mind; it doesn’t have the regular, “how to plan for the day?”

We try to call to those relatives, with whom we haven’t spoken in months, and remember the things that are yet to be done, that bucket-list of activities.

Those relatives were also surprised that we called them so early in the morning, especially on a working day.

We keep going through the day, in our mind, constantly praying to that favourite God.

The daily routine goes on, sometimes we think, it’s weird, why are we behaving so differently today, but still it goes on.

All this happened to me today. By God’s grace, everything is all right, but I just wanted to pen it here.